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Ahad, 27 Februari 2011

a voice from my heart

this thing happen da lama
kekadang, this thing mganggu ktenteraman jiwa gak r
this is the voice deep down in my heart,
aku bkn jnis yg...shout out loud ap yg aku rasa
smpai kekadang...org akan pikir aku this type of person, or whateva
but that not really me..and i really hate people kritik2 sal aku
or give an assumption psl aku, sdg kan they dont know me better.
no one know me....

eh, termelalut lak...hihihi. back to the main story
wat pe nak pikir ap org ckp kan...
klo aku kawen ngn my lovey pn.. it bcos i love him as much as he love me
bkn sbb aku aku nak kawen, perlu kawen or kene kawen.
bcos i love him so no matter what happen after this is doesn't matter
erk..it does matter, but... i have him to be by my side as me to be his side
adoyai...english bterabur lagik...huhuhu

some people ad said this to me
' ish...bek ko pikir btol2 yan, ko nak kawen ke x ngn dia sblm tlambat,
nt da kawen da xley wat ap da, susah taw dok ngn mertua neh...nak2 dia ank sulong'
[warning: i want to used bad word..pls do not proceed if u dont want to read about it.]

WHAT THE HELL!!!! 
aku syg dia sbb aku syg dia
bkn nye
aku syg dia sbb aku nak pasangan hidup yang boley
memberikan aku segala2 nye.
erk....ok, mmg la...sape nak kawen tok susah kan..
sume org harapkn kebahagiaan.
ok betol...tp that kind of advice...
BETOL2 XLEY DITERIMA

kawen ngn sape2 pn..akn ade mertua gak kn
[kecuali kawen ngn anak yatim piatu]
mungkin aku blom kawen n taw masalah2 yg
bakal timbul mcm dorg ckp
tp..xpatut la bg nasihat cm tue...
awk da kawen....awk taw ap yg awk rase dlm alam rumah tangga
spatutnye awk nasihat cm ne..nak bbaik2 ngn mertua...
klo dduk ngn mertua..kne pndai jaga ht merua...
bukan suruh aku jgn kawen...
bodo nye nasihat...

lgpn...spanjang aku dok jmpa ngn mak bapak my lovey
dorg ok je....but then,
if in the future, ade msalah yg timbul
it because of me...bkn mertua
aku yg lack of everything...
xpndai masak,xtaw mgemas...suke men game...hehehe
n my lovey always reminds me that,
one day if we get married, what i need to do...
what i need to learn, mcm2 la...ap yg xley wat
owh...jgn tlalu manja, asek2 nk nangis jea...ehek

mmg klo ikut aku, aku xnak dok ngn mertua
tp bkn sbb aku x suka or ap...
tp sbb aku nak merasa hidup sbgai isteri...
but, my lovey nk dduk ngn family dia...
lg pn..dia ank sulung....n satu2 nye anak lelaki
dia mungkin ase yg itu tanggungjawab dia untk looked after
his parents, it ok with me...
siyes le...iklas dr hati. i dont mind...
so...jgn bagi nasihat yang mengarut tuh.. my lovey's family
is so important to him, sama gak mcm aku... my family is important to me
jd bile aku kawen ngn dia....i'm part of family too... n automatically
his family is also important to me...
kalo kne marah tue... bkn sbb mertua x suka or ap,
tp sbb kte salah. n disebabkan kite part of family...
dorg marah kte...tegur kte, treat us like their own child,
bukan disebabkan benci or else.

i really wish that they accept me as part of the family..
so, bley adik2 my lovey...bg keychain sbgai tnda ingatan 
[2nd sister blaja kt aussie, n bongsu blaja kt rusia].
aku btol2 gembira, sbb i've been acknowledged.
hu...ayat mcm salah jea... aku sgt2 gembira sbb dorg taw kewujudan aku...
huhuhu....wlo pn just keychain....ia sgt2 berharga,

n the new one was a keychain from his 2nd sister,
it was from sabah....
owh, my lovey nie jnis yg xtaw nak bg adiah kt org or nk surprise org 
when he have something for me... dia just letak je kt ats seat kete..
of kos la aku perasan kat...xkan aku nk lenyek je ngn bontot aku neh
bile aku tnye...ap neh... baru dia ckp it was for me...
my lovey ade tegur aku sbb aku ltk sume keychain tue kt kunci rumah
smpai berat gile da...dia sowh letak kt lain gak
but i dont want to loose them all...huhu
aku neh agk clumsy...so that the way tok x ilg kan bnde tuh....
\(^_^)/



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