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Ahad, 25 September 2011

My engagement: pertunangan ku di tunda???

sedih...
tu je yg bley ckp...
arrrggghhh... aku x kira, ak tetap akn anggap it will going on just like in plan..
lantak r...

nape tunda?
ntah...aku da fed up!!
da dia suka ktorg kua berdatingan tnpa sebarang ikatan lama2...
aku x suka...tp ntah, mls nk argue..

dua kali dia persoalkan...
memula dia ckp...if ur mom up kn hrga hntaran cm ne?
u nak kawen ngn my mon ke?? dia bla3... what if this what if that..
what if my mom this, what if his mom that... aku diam!
fine....than we closed the topic, shut it...throw it in the bin.

then dia msj like....
i'm just worried....
'it fine, if u not ready yet...i dont want to pksa2..tunang kn bnd gembira...
i dont want to hepy2 by my own self...its ok, we pospone it then,'
he reply...
'it's ok...just continue wit the plan...i tried my best to fulfill it..
and of kos i'm hepy...just worried,teruskan je ngan all the preparation,'
fine than.

but yesterday...
once again..dia bla3..all the same thing..
aku diam.
smpai umah aku msj...
'i told u, its ok if u not ready...i'm fine. just cancel the plan.'

dah btol...
awk yg ckp nak btunang kn...
sy hepy jea...skang awk nk slh kn sy...
konon sy x pikir panjang...
konon nt kalu kawen ssh la nk wat itu ini...
fine lah!
kte teruskan je ngan idup kte skang neh...
xpe kn....

kalo awk xnk..
kalo awk x ready..
nape dlu awk bg sy harapan?
awk nk amek ht sy je ke ms tuh?
just nk pujuk sy?

bia la weh...
sy da mls nak pikir...
ayat awk, menyakitkan hati...
awk kte sy hny pikir diri sendiri...
sy gedik2 nak bertunang ( padahal awk yg ajk sy bertunang )
pastu sy x pikir sal awk..nt awk susah sume...
fine lah, kalo awk pikir awk akn susah kalo kawen ngan saye...
fine than.

tgk!!!
skang sy da emo...
bnd yg x jdk pn sy pk jdk..
bnd kecik pn sy pk besar...

kalo sy kate sy x kesah klo kte x tunang lg...
awk kte sy over...
kalo sy kte xpe sy tnggu smpai awk bsedia..
awk kate sy perli2 awk...
sy btol2 x phm...

nak je sy tny awk...
'awk nk hidup ngan sy ke?'
kang nt tetiba awk mintak clash ngn sy....
konon sy x syg awk g tny soalan cm tu,
sy gak susah...

ntah la awk...
sy penat tahu!!!
ap awk nk sy pn x taw...

true love is when u shed a tear and still want him.
it's when he ignores u and u still love him.
it when he shout at u and u still smile at him.
it when he hurt u and u still forgive him.



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