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Ahad, 22 Julai 2012

Nape Saya X Gembira Dapat Naik Gaji???? Why????

My bos da pesan kept it as a secret... I do
Tp aku x jangka ada yg sanggup curi2 baca surat y aku selit dlm my diary
God..im freak rite now...

Nape nak takut, nape nak stress dpt naik gaji kot.. it supposed to be gud news la kn??
Yeah rite...gembira..tp bila segelintir je dpt and mostly xdpt.. mesti ada yg x puas ht, even dorg x cakap...
Serius risau gile...ase nak suruh bos ak amek balik increament tuh...tanak, stress gile kot...

Ase bersalah sebab i cant kept it as a secret...
Da la lepas tu siap kena keliling ngn akak2 level atas, kne soal siasat siap..mampos aku
Xtaw la camne nak hadapi mende ni esok...

Mesti kecoh kat opis esok..
Mesti kne soal siasat lg...damn r korg, jgn buat aku ase nak benti boleh x??? Aku stress ok!!!
Plg xley blah bila ada yg x puas hati g jumpa bos siap...damn r!!!
Serius aku x taw hati manusia...ingtkn da taw diam2 je...

Lepas my pakwe cite what will happen if people know bout it,
Baru aku taw...it not possible people pretend to be nice to us just to know our secret...
And they will back stab us...urrgghh...
Im not say that dorang tu jahat...tikam belakang whatso..

But...i dont want to be the center of attention nanti...xsuka.
And xnak mende ni jadik kecoh, jadik isu...
Plus increament tu bukan byk pon...for those yg masuk dlm company tu with pay less than what i should get..
I just get what i deserved je pon...for a year, aku dpt kurang dr org lain... Now, i dont know if it even or maybe they get more seiring dgn masa..idont know..but, saya dpt ni..setelah lama bersabar...so please dont envy me...please berkongsi gembira dengan saya...

Really hope that esok, everything is normal...
Jgn la sampai mende ni smpai ke pengetahuan bos...jgn la kecoh satu opis pasal ni...
For the first place i should open my letter at home jer...
I dont blame those yg curik baca my letter, it just out of curiosity so its ok..saya maafkan.
I dont blame those yg ramai2 pakat interview with all the question smpai saya x mampu nak protected myself n denied it.

I blame myself sbb xtnggu baca surat tu kat umah je..
I blame myself sbb xpandai menipu..even i dont say a word but my face and reactions give them d answers..damn me..

O god please help me...
Ase xnak g keje je esok...how im supposed to kept up a gud work kalo cam ni????